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Friday, April 23, 2010
i hate myself right now. i just feel like killing myself. I'm not being emo or anything. its a fact that i realise. i'm a burden to people, i ask way too much questions, i screw things up, i forget stuffs and i'm such a pain in the freaking ass. i never asked or wish to be forgetful! what cause me to be forgetful is my mistake. and yes i know, i might always be going in and out of the hospital but i never ever asked for that to happen! and i know i'm not the smarty pants, pretty, uber rich and a good friend. but at least acknowledge as an individual. i know i've hurt and insulted people with or without me realising but i'll totally make it up for it. i will feel bad. and yes i know i'm bloody well not a trophy friend. i suck at everything! sometimes, i might be happy, jumpy, all excited but actually, its just a stupid mask that i put on to make me feel a little better. and when i'm all happy and jumpy, the next thing you know, i'll be crying. cause, my happiness can never ever last for a long period of time. if being in school already make me feel sad, being at home even makes me feel sadder. everybody have their own demands. everybody have their own way of thinking. since everyone in the house have been in a position where they are the manager or a leader or they achieved something high, and thought that they have the greatest influence in the family. do this. do that. sometimes i wonder, what do people take me for? yes, my family often make me cry but sometimes its just a little too taken for granted for me to achieve everything. i'm just a little disturb. my room is sometimes the only place for salvation for me. and it just makes me feel sad thinking about it. but seriously i want to know what people think about me. its the only way to prove my senses wrong. im sorry charles, this is my life i lead everyday. i try not to do anything stupid. i'm sorry. |
Zee CW ★ " Zee CW, the kid who always step on the pavement cracks, and blames herself, then she ran back home to her crib where she cry and cry.." Too Little Too Late - Jojo -MB0902 -Andre -Desmond -Isabelle -Michelle -Ralene -Angie -Maurice -Daryl -Dynie -Geri -Qraisha -Ifah December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 Designer : Chili. x o x o |