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Thursday, April 29, 2010
i am so very tired. and i don't have any mood to do anything right now. im sad, disappointed, angry and hate myself. sometimes i wonder, why on earth am i taking care about how others feel? its like care more abt how others feel rather than how i feel. now looking back, i'm quite dumb to do that cause they'll just take advantage of my kindness. and don't give a shit abt me. why such people exist? i couldnt afford to be as fierce as i am at home cause i need friends for help and make my life better not worse. its just sad that some people thinks that the world revolves around them and they rule the world. so vain. only god knows my good intentions i'm so sick right now. but i actually look fine on the outside. sigh. i cancelled my dental appt. from april till december.. sigh.. and nearly fought with everyone at home. and on wednesday, i was early in sch and i thought i'll be fine the whole day but,,, i was wrong. i started to have dizzyness and vomiting.. i only gt acid in my tummy so.. thats what i pucked out. and i totally cant breathe at all. my ears popped, my vision went slightly blur and thats when i decided that i need to go home and something is totally wrong with me. took a cab home and the uncle was talking to me but i think i fell asleep till we exited SLE. reached home, a few hours later.. i blacked out. and i had all those weird vision? dream? whatever it is.. its has been occurring in my sleep one time too many. only that this time its more real and scary. and thats all i could remember.. and it's all because of..lack of iron and a very low blood pressure. sigh. i think if there is one place i could runaway and find peace in my mind.. i think that would be me buying myself an island in the bahamas and spend my day there alone.. okay mayb not alone.. together with a friend or two.. charlie is a must:) bye |
Zee CW ★ " Zee CW, the kid who always step on the pavement cracks, and blames herself, then she ran back home to her crib where she cry and cry.." Too Little Too Late - Jojo -MB0902 -Andre -Desmond -Isabelle -Michelle -Ralene -Angie -Maurice -Daryl -Dynie -Geri -Qraisha -Ifah December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 Designer : Chili. x o x o |