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Wednesday, March 10, 2010
12.27am sigh.. im so very mood-less right now. angry. irritated. sad. disappointed. and also tired. i really feel like crying but, no use. i'll just end up tiring myself. im so sick and tired of everything. somehow, i do not look forward to something new and interesting everyday cause i know, the path will still be the same. irritating people. my anger and emotional problem. family.. sigh. i really dont know how i feel. i only feel sadness and anger. even though im all crazy and laughing, the presence of the sadness and anger will still be there. there is more to my sadness and anger just that i'll never openly tell it or post it. if you're observant or know how i think, theres a chance you'll know how i feel. sigh. pointless. who would ever care? i guess no one can ever guess what i'm feeling exactly right now. why am i willing to hurt myself for no reason knowing it could never ever happen? or why am i letting people hurt me and i still continue saying'it's okay'? i've come to realise that no one cares. humans only care for themselves and the things or someone that they love and the world is out of the picture. now i think i'm the only freak amongst the people i know. im weak. stupid therapy. but still, i know there is more in me and i'm different. i do know there are some people who judge me. im not pretty neither am i gorgeous. i know that. but i care for the people around me in spite of my odd change of emotions. and thats all i care. i'll try to look presentable. that should be acceptable. i cant control people's mind set. i need a hug right now but, i'll just control myself. i think i should start crying now. easier for me to sleep. sigh. bye. 12.45am |
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