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Thursday, January 7, 2010
my table is wet. water droplets are falling from my chin. my cheeks are wet and sticky. my eyes are in pain.red. and tears are pouring out. i bet my face look horrible now. tonight, is the night where i've cried the worst out of the few weeks back of crying. i'm disappointed.devastated.sad. after all of my effort put in to make some people feel better. despite my own problems, i'm willing to push it aside and open up just to listen to your facing problem and try my best in anyways or means to cheer you up. and when you're all better and i'm in a mess, you push me aside and totally delete me from your memory. and i was hoping that you'll be willing to hear what problems i'm jolly well facing. but hell, i was wrong. and to make matters worse, your words hurts and you practically treat me like a punching bag. and how stupid can i be, i'm still willing to help and listen to you despite all those things that you've done. because, i thought you were my friend. for once. but who gives a shit. if my parents don't care, would anyone else care about me??! NO! i guess, i'm not worthy to have any friends. i just wished that i could be as how i was. i miss being me. i miss not feeling sad and angry all the time. i wish i could turn back time and edit my life. i'm in such miserable state right now. i cry too much. my eyeballs hurt. i need to do some thinking. my mind is chocking. i need more of my meds. i need a heavier dose. my head have been having these sorts of sharp pain poking my brain. i should stop focusing on life. i wish i could remember. i'm sorry. open house sucks! secondary students nowadays are deaf! stuck-ups! suckers! faggots! arseholes!! they just messed with my mood. screw ém. i'll end my post here. i'll just keep all my problems in my cookie jar deep inside the corner of my mind. for the time being, i'll just suffer quietly. the best solution. |
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