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Sunday, January 31, 2010
it feels like I'm chocking. my heartbeat is faint. my heart work twice as hard just to get me breathing. my vision starts to go dark. my hearing, blocked. my head gave up. i stumbled and tried to get out of the train. i sat down. my heart and head was in massive pain. i searched for my phone and dialed some numbers. i cant hear. my vision getting darker. i put my head in between my legs. i'm out. the moment i'm awake. my chest hurts so bad. so is my head. i puked acid. my body became so weak. my face looked pale. my lips dry. my fingertips, white. i felt so weak and fragile. but all i could do is cry. i owe him one. i thought he never come. i never expect a black out. i was fine in the morning. my breathing is still weak, but i can still do normal stuffs at a slow pace. but, i cant take long train rides, standing. and be at crowded places. now, i find myself all alone. my friends always come and go. i can't express myself how i'm feeling. i don't have a shoulder to cry on. its been long since i hugged anyone. i feel so empty. i guess, its my fate to be a sad and depressed soul. i wish this would end. i envy people who are living their lives and has friends who are always by their side. sigh. 3 weeks till exam. my revision starts tomorrow. stay in school till the library close or go RP and study. i have loads of catching up to do. i've been thinking, even though science is not my passion, but i think i'll just do it for the benefit of my future kids. i know it sounds stupid but, i just want them to have what they want in life and enjoy life. sigh. i know it sounds stupid. i've lost my ez-link card, IC and atm card. and my right eye is swollen!! $#@%^!@!$ |
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