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Thursday, January 14, 2010
yesterday, i told myself, i'll move on with my life and stop crying my heart out. its been like nearly 2months.. i've been crying and crying. frankly, my health is also getting worse. i'm like so very sad and disappointed. i'm in pieces. i'm in ruins. i got my new dose of meds! and i just wish my parents would care more. and i just wish i had a good friend. i find my life meaningless.boring. i feel like i'm tired of living. but i'm grateful, for god have given me a chance to live and see the world. at its best and worst. i always wanted a hug.its been long since i hugged someone. clinging on to grover is not considered as hugging. *grover is my stuffed toy the sesame street dude ><* i tried talking to mom again. and still, she ignored me. i guess, so much for trying. the only thing i got was disappointment. my tears are nothing. i'd cry for people but, no one would cry for me. i'm worthless. meaningless to them. yes. it does break my heart but, i'll still be there for people who careless about me. i know, i sound so very fake but, i really do that. parents, family and friends. never cared.arguments.inexistance friends. i respect all of them. eventhough i dont have much, but still, i practice my mutual respect for them. *eventhough i dont receive any from them* the number of friends that i have have been decreasing. and now, i dont have a schoolmate frm pri or sec, that i'll hang out with. they left. i have my respect for my poly friends. they're nice people. i still can't accept the fact that, mom and dad have their own ideology about me. they don't know me. they're rarely home. i'm left with an empty house with only duck. i think i have to give duck away soon. i can tell my parents have something up their sleeves. this time round, i think this post sound off. but hey, who else read my blog except for me??! fk that. |
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