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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
i guess i will never ever understand what i want. i'm lost. i'm so alone. i'm scared. i'm angry. i'm sad. i'm crying way too much. i need something to look forward everyday to keep me going. everything now seems so hopeless. my constant arguments with my parents and siblings. i'm losing myself. my emotions are getting worse everyday. i feel so hopeless. i just wanna run away. run away from everything and everyone. i want to be somewhere peaceful. somewhere i can find myself. i just wanna be away from home for the time being. i feel foreign in my own home. but i feel safe in my room and thats where i'll cry. i'm a little half-hearted to share my problems with anyone right now. cause everything seems too complicated and depressing. i just want to cry. my eyes are puffy. if only you knew what i'm going through in my life everyday and how i feel, you'll wish that you have someone to be there to lend a shoulder to cry on and some understanding. sometimes, i wonder why am i here. i do feel like killing myself but, its against my religion. i'll smile and laugh in school. but still, i feel wrong laughing. there is nothing in my life that i can laugh. but it kills me to not to laugh at some humor once in a while. i don't mind being alone. going out alone. eating breakfast, lunch and dinner alone. cause, everyone i know seem so distant from me. sadness and disappointment. nothing ever change. i tried talking to my mom but, she just ignored me. i tried. it hurts even more when theres arguments. i'm so lost in my own world. |
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