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Sunday, December 20, 2009
still, im trying to make the best of everything and every second of my life and what it has to offer. sadly, its hard. my circle of friends has grown smaller. my mind, is confused. i'm lost. someway or another, i'm not me. i'm not like before. i cry alot recently. bruised my right knee. and from the shortness of breath, i can tell i'm low on iron. ive gained lots of weight since last week, due to lack of sleep... it sucks. 48kg to ~50kg -_-" . my backbone hurts. my back is partly bruised. damn why is my lappy heavy?! i promised myself that i'll change. i promised myself that i'll be someone new. i promised myself that i'll stop smoking. i promised myself that i'll stop procrastinating. i promised myself to not be mean to people around me especially my siblings. i promised myself to not be bulimic. i promised myself to just care but not love. in the end, i realize, ive promised myself empty promises. thats why i dont hold on to promises. maybe some promises made by some people. i do care and love people around me. but sometimes... i guess time will tell. its the hols. im gonna get my brain working for school. dont wanna miss anything out. now, i remembered what i wanted to be when i was in my early secondary. i wanted to be a Lawyer. funny ey, someone like me becoming a lawyer. lawyers are always liars, my dad always say. =( but hey, i end up in a course that had never come to my mind. and guess what?! i'm struggling! for now, i think its just up to me whether will i put all my heart to Life Science. i hope and pray i will. if not i'll be wasting 3 years. i hope some one will understand me. *Someone's bound to hear my cry, speak out if you do, you're not easy to find* |
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